Saturday, July 23, 2011

O, horrible! O, horrible! most horrible!

Eighty-five dead!
No, eighty-eight... wait, wait...
More they say... still counting.
Is it ninety-one? Ninety-two?
at camp... in the midst of fun and games...
one at a time they gasped, clutched, contorted
unbelieving
not suspecting life could ever be finished
not ever...
but today? Absurd.

Looking up... what he saw,
the blond boy whose mother loved him
more than she loved her own life,
an ordinary man, blond, too...
a policeman aiming the rifle...
more flashes... more noise... more...
unaccounted pain... then untimely night...
nothing!

exeunt







Friday, July 22, 2011

This morning I rode to the end of the bike path by the river and would have gone the couple of hundred yards on out to where the ocean crashes onto the rocks, but the Coast Guard has put a locked gate there and a "no trespassing" warning. I understand why the gate is there. The Coast Guard has instruments and signal lights out there that must be kept intact to make the entrance to Mission Bay safe for boat traffic. The rusty chain and locks matched my mood. Before heading out on my bike I had read George Will’s column in the Washington Post; and although I know what to expect from the him, his celebratory writing about the Tea Party representatives in congress depressed me. He is encouraging Republicans to hold the line and not allow tax increases on the wealthiest Americans. He says this president, whom he refuses to call by name, must not be allowed any kind of "victory" that might help him stay in office for a second term. He says they should continue to hold out and not compromise at all.

Until today I wasn’t worried. I thought the posturing would stop well short of the August Second deadline, but now I’m not so sure. It looks as if they are going to lock up the future of our country. Everybody knows that if the country defaults on its debts, even if a week later a bill is passed to give a meager extension, the nation’s economy will be thrown into even more serious chaos than we have been experiencing in the past couple of years. Evidently they believe that extending and worsening the economic situation will knock Barack Obama out of office in the next election. Wow! It’s hard to believe.

The gate at the end of the trail is bound with a rusty chain and two locks. It seemed to me this morning to be an appropriate metaphor for the situation in Washington and the right subject for my picture for today.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Anybody who doubts the power of myth should go down to San Diego’s Convention Center this weekend and watch an estimated one-hundred-fifty thousand people of all ages waiting for hours to get into the hall to see and buy iconic trinkets and costumes representing their favorite modern mythical characters. Many of them have come in costume. I saw at least a hundred versions of Luke Skywalker and as many Princess Leias, a dozen Harry Potters, and several of the comic-book characters I loved when I was a boy. Participants in the Comic Con Convention range from elementary school children to octogenarians. Some are serious devotees, and others were there as I was this morning for the spectacle. I had come down on my bicycle with no intention of going inside, but I must confess that I’d have liked to see what’s inside... at twenty dollars a pop, tickets were all sold out.

Once each week I participate with a group of close friends in philosophical discussions, and this summer we are reviewing the creation myths of several historical civilizations, some long gone from the earth and others persisting with full force into the present time. We are revisiting the PBS series, Joseph Campbell and the Power of Myth with Bill Moyers.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

FRIENDSHIP
Carpe Diem

Robert Frost (1923)


Age saw two quiet children
Go loving by at twilight,
He knew not whether homeward,
Or outward from the village,
Or (chimes were ringing) churchward,
He waited (they were strangers)
Till they were out of hearing
To bid them both be happy.
“Be happy, happy, happy,
And seize the day of pleasure.”
The age-long theme is Age’s.
’Twas Age imposed on poems
Their gather-roses burden
To warn against the danger
That overtaken lovers
From being overflooded
With happiness should have it.
And yet not know they have it.
But bid life seize the present?
It lives less in the present
Than in the future always,
And less in both together
Than in the past. The present
Is too much for the senses,
Too crowding, too confusing—
Too present to imagine.











Tuesday, July 19, 2011


Today's photographs are a redux of yesterday. I went back to the reflecting pond to see how much the lotus blossoms had changed overnight. Down at the end of today's journal entry I fooled around with some of the images to make some changes of my own. Photoshop is a great playground.



My friend, Irene, shared a card she got from a friend; and the way good things that are shared often become even better with the sharing, the idea expressed in subtle letters on the front of the card seems even more important after it has percolating for a couple of days in my head. Across the top of the card in big letters: I WOULD RATHER HAVE A MIND OPENED BY WONDER THAN ONE CLOSED BY BELIEF. I bird-dogged the quote the way it is possible to do these days with almost anything by asking Google to find the person credited with saying it. Someone named Gerry Spence, a lawyer, said it in a book called How to Argue and Win Every Time: At Home, At Work, In Court, Everywhere.

This BLOG writing isn’t about winning every time. I haven’t read Mr. Spence’s book or read extensively in his BLOG. Actually, I’d like to have a conversation with him so I could tell him how much I like what he said, but I’d like also to tell him that I see in the title and subtitle of his book a glaring contradiction. Perhaps I’ll do some more exploring and to see if he always argues to win, the way television lawyers do in court.

I like a fight as well as the next guy. I like to win. When I play a game, I don’t go all soft if I’m winning and start to wish the other people in the game would win. If I slip up and start to lose the advantage, it’s not on purpose. No Sir! I want the biggest numbers on my dominoes. I want to dunk the ball. I want to win. So, I’m not all cuddly and nice in competition... but a pick-up basketball game or dominoes with friends isn’t the same thing at all as a discussion about what’s happening in Washington or about what this or that church is promoting. I try to remind myself that I’m getting into dangerous territory in discussions about religion or politics when I feel myself wanting to prove I’m right... right now and have always been right and always intend to be right because I belong to the one true church and am a certifiable, dues-paying member of the political party which has the correct answers in all matters of state.

So, in spite of my nature and as hard as it is to do, I would rather have my mind opened by wonder than closed by belief. I was taught at a young age that the religious institution to which my family belonged was the one with the right answers especially in matters of God and Being and Relationships and that when there was any disagreement between the requirements of the law on a subject and the church’s pronouncements about what God said on a subject, I should rest assured that the church’s way was the right way. If the law said a woman should be able to choose whether she would have an abortion and the church said she should not have that right, I was expected to believe the church. If the church and the law disagree on whether or not only a man and a woman may enter into the legal civil relationship called marriage, I was expected to believe that the church, by God, had settled the matter correctly. If the state has no problem with men or women of whatever race or sexual orientation serving in any employment, but the church says men or women of whatever race or nationality or age whose sexual orientation is hetero and not homo may be employed in clerical CEO positions, I was taught to side with the church. I was taught wrong.

It’s hard for me to watch what’s happening in Washington as Democrats and Republicans wrestle over the fairly simple matter of raising the debt ceiling, which the country has done routinely many times. Rigid, closed-minded partisanship and shrewd political gamesmanship are taking my country right up to the edge of economic catastrophe. This is a difficult time for all of us. It certainly is a difficult time for me. Anybody who knows me or has read what I write knows that I can be fairly described as a bleeding-heart liberal, some would say bordering-on-the-edge of socialism Democrat. It’s true. I have a very difficult time reconciling hard-edged capitalism with the “do unto others what you would have them do unto you” central theme of the Christian Gospel or, for that matter, with the basic outlines for a fair and just civil society intentioned in the Constitution of the United States of America. However, whenever or wherever being a Democrat tempts me to close my mind to possibilities and ideas for solving problems for the good of my country, I hope I shall have the courage of my convictions and keep my mind present and open to all possibilities... and if it should ever become necessary, to stop calling myself a Democrat. Being a Democrat doesn’t define me. Being a Methodist doesn’t define me.

And just to satisfy my tendency to sometimes be contrary, I’m not going to go back and recast that very clumsy next-to-last sentence in the paragraph above with it’s however, whenever, wherever all lined up in a row the way Mrs. Laney, my high school English teacher would suggest, not insist, but suggest I do. I loved that woman because she had learned the art of suggestion and didn’t need to always insist. And, yes, yes, yes, I know “to sometimes be” and “to always insist” are split infinitives... because Mrs. Laney taught me that, and in those days she suggested it was better to avoid splitting infinitives.


Monday, July 18, 2011

It’s no wonder the Lotus Flower is such a popular symbol in Eastern religions. This summer I’ve kept track of several individual flowers in Balboa Park’s reflecting pool. From bud to seed pod they are worthy symbols of the values at the center of the Hindu religion. In the Hindu creation myth Lord Brahma emerged from the naval of Lord Vishnu who was sitting on a Lotus. The lotus flower is a symbol of eternity. The Goddess Saraswati, the Hindu Goddess of learning is almost always shown sitting on a lotus. The reflecting pool in Balboa Park is clean and clear, but in India the swamps are murky where the lotus grows in the wild. The Lotus flower is a symbol of enlightment amid ignorance.




Sunday, July 17, 2011


Asi Es La Vida

The webs we spin
privately...
all our own.

A spider on my back porch
spins webs...
effective ones.

My cousin was a spinner of webs.
No, that’s a lie...
He wasn’t my cousin
or even a relative
but someone I felt kin to
in the way
my harmless spider is kin to
a black widow
in a hole in the tree
by the playground.

It’s the web that fascinates me.
It isn’t perfect... no web ever is.
But it’s a trap.
A trap.
A trap.
A trap.